WARNING: Freewriting and meandering ahead.
"It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine."--R.E.M.
Is this all there is?
Something's not right. I just feel it somewhere in the back of my head. It sets off a siren every time I go to work, sit in a business meeting, wait in a lobby, or get forced to dine with vapid people. The warning ticks out like there's a live torpedo lodged in my flank and it's about to blow. It's not supposed to be like this. We weren't supposed to be squeezed into cubes, grateful to merely exist.
There's been a lot of talk of "living in the matrix" or another such artificial construct. Maybe too much talk, I think. It would be interesting to see just how widespread such thoughts were prior to the release of the movie. While The Matrix was only so-so as a film, it did raise a few philosophical points. Why do I feel this way about life? Why, like Neo, do I stay up late at night on my computer, searching through the shadowy corners of the Internet and the archives of so-called unorthodox research, looking for that answer I just can't put my finger on? Maybe because I can't clarify the question.
"And as things fell apart, nobody paid much attention."--Talking Heads
The majority of people I know (and I do mean just know, not my close friends or family) are content to be solely concerned with their jobs, their kids, their cars, their house, and their investment portfolio. I'll go you one better. They're not just content, they're incapable of caring about anything more. Want evidence of this? Next time you see someone in a public place with a cell phone or blue tooth fused to their heads, listen in on the conversation. It shouldn't be hard. They will probably talk loud enough to be heard without prying. One example that comes to my mind is the man I heard in Las Vegas, on his cell while dumping in a bathroom stall. Trust me, his conversation with his friend about stereo equipment and surfing waves probably could have waited (were I him, I also would not have continued to drink from the glass of rum and Coke that he brought into the stall with him as it could not have escaped unscathed from the scent of dung.)
That's just it. Whatever conversation you will hear will more than likely be one of very little substance. Like a husband giving his wife a forward recon of whatever store he's in. Given the overall embracing of "dumb" by this culture, it makes me think we're already living in the future world described in William Gibson novels, just without all the cool technology. Then I walk through the parking lot at work and find two empty liquor bottles and a used syringe. Then it seems more like the "Interzone" of William Burroughs.
Author and philosopher Robert Anton Wilson once said that "the biggest conspiracy is the conspiracy of stupid." People don't want their children taught any kind of "new ideas" in schools. Parents don't want their college students to be part of any kind of curriculum that won't enhance earning potential. People don't want anything intelligent on television. Religion is the opiate of the masses? Heh. Too bad Karl Marx didn't live to see TV.
I am a writer. My academic background is in English composition and literature. As my "writing buddies" and I struggle to gain acceptance into the current marketplace, "the conspiracy of stupid" is apparent every day. I struggled through my Master's program at times, being told that science fiction just isn't a literary form acceptable to the academy. It was "genre writing" (said as if they had just swallowed something bitter like earwax.) I attempted to tailor my prose in more of a "literary" vein, whatever that means. Then publishing agents told me it was unsellable. Where were the car chases? The explosions? The shower scenes? People don't want to read someone using depth and character development. So...guess I'm too dumb to be William Faulkner and too smart to be Dan Brown...and nowhere near "punky" enough to be David Foster Wallace.
Please, I don't mean to make myself out to be falsely superior. I am likewise a drone. I spend my weekdays commuting to a job that is meaningless to me and my weekends cleaning my house and doing my laundry. Why? Suppose I work as a 21st Century form of slavery and I clean so that I'll leave behind a tidy place should I die. I likewise do not mean to be dismissive of mobile technology. I cannot imagine my life without my cell phone or any of my other apps and digital connections. I also like dumb forms of entertainment at times. Part of me really embraces the world. So why the malaise? Why the ennui? Because part of me wants to just kick it in the face.
I know that millions of people have come and gone this way. They worked their way through daily drudgery just to survive. They toiled in obscurity and then winked out before they knew it. Indeed, I am waiting for a comment that is along the lines of "this is all in your head, everybody has a boring life, buck up, that'll be 5 cents please."
Sorry. Not good enough for me. I'm just looking for some larger answer. That's part of why I started this blog. That and the fact that every time I really apply myself and attempt to make a change, it falls apart. So much for "freeing yourself from the matrix." There is a matrix. And I have helped to create it.
Just waiting on something to happen, something to wake people up, to help us evolve beyond all...this. As I'm writing, our President is lambasting the CEOs of BP. He should, but he is only doing it after public pressure. Will this disaster in the Gulf bring about any sort of change in how we live? Probably not. The oil companies are still in charge and I don't see that coming to an end any time soon regardless of the political party in power. So I'll go back to hoping there's still something big on the horizon.
Because even if there isn't, it helps me get through the day.
"If this is paradise, I wish I had a lawn mower."--Talking Heads
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Jon... this is your life. The universe churns around you with heavenly bodies coliding together destroying old worlds and creating new ones. Here on earth, mountains rise and fall, deserts change to forests and back again, species evolve and become extinct. You have a simple yet meaningful purpose and it is to experience it with your minds eye. Sit back, relax, enjoy the show. If you are bored, do something nice for someone who is struggling. You have a glorious opportunity to at the same time be an infinitley insignificant part of a immense universe and a unique and special person who can have enormous impact of your immediate environment. If you don't understand what I am talking about then go outside and spend ten minutes observing an ant.
ReplyDeleteHave we, as a species, "evolved" too far? Is your self diagnosed malaise because your brain is not wired for free time? What if we don't know what to do with ourselves because we're NOT trying simply to survive 24/7?
ReplyDeleteSorry if my word choices communicated that I am bored. I'm not. I wish I were.
ReplyDeleteWhat I want is meaning. Significance. I know those are arbitrary terms and you might say that I already have those things. Well, I'm going by my own definition and I suppose I'll just leave it at that.
I thought about putting down some philosophical advice along the lines of "whatever you're doing is whatever you're doing, so just do that" or "if you stop thinking about it, it stops being a problem (Wittgenstein)", but I'll just say...
ReplyDeleteThe A-TEAM open this FRIDAY! W00T!
@Jon
ReplyDeleteI didn't get that you were bored. When I said, "If you are bored," I really meant, "If you get to be bored." I don't always say what I mean.
It's all perspective. If you look for meaning and significance in a vast universe, it will seem miniscule to non-existent. If you look for meaning and significance to your immadiate world such as your house, family, job, you will find your actions can be very meaningful and significant.
Go outside and observe an ant. That is the best advice I can give you if you want to find meaning.
@Bernard Yes! A-Team! Everything else is just jibber jabber, fool!
ReplyDeleteHi Jon,
ReplyDeleteI like your rant. It's good to vent thoughts & feelings. Perhaps, better yet, the fact you are asking questions. That's a sign of curiousity & frustration - which are the two components of learning.
Yes for the A-team movie. It does look cool but we'll see. :)
David said..."You have a simple yet meaningful purpose and it is to experience it with your minds eye. Sit back, relax, enjoy the show. If you are bored, do something nice for someone who is struggling."
I agree with the relataion part but we are not here with any true meaningful purpose. This is not me debating the way you see things vs they way I see them. This is not just a personal opinion expalaining how it works. As people say...we live in a Matrix, true! I'll expain more in a few comments.
mypilot said...
Have we, as a species, "evolved" too far?"
No...we just evolved in the wrong direction through misguided instructions...it's called Religion & Science...the misdirection. It's all lies. And before you get mad at me think about what i just said. How many times have we proving solid scienticific information we thought to be correct, wrong! Hmmm....lots. Therefore we can never assume that our science is acurate because it's not And religion is basically made up and I can prove that. It commeon sense if you just look around.
If you don't think the Matrix is real, then think again. Read the passage....
"Morpheus: I see it in your eyes. You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, that's not far from the truth. Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: Because I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life.
Morpheus: I know *exactly* what you mean. Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Neo: The Matrix.
Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?
Neo: Yes.
(next line very important)
Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind."
This last paragraph is true and I can prove that to, we are slaves of the system in everyway. DS888
IF YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW WHAT’S TRANSPIRING THEN STOP READING NOW. IF YOU SINCERELY CHOOSE TO KNOW WHAT’S TRANSPIRING THEN CONTINUE TO READ, BUT KNOW THAT YOU’RE REALITY WILL BE DESTROYED AND EVERYTHING YOU’VE EVER BEEN TAUGHT AS BEING REAL WILL BE SHATTERED. IN RETURN FOR THIS REALIZATION, A TRANSITION FROM THE TRANCE STATE AND A RECONNECTION TO WISDOM THROUGH AWARENESS, AND THE FREEDOM AND LIBERTY OF THE ETERNAL PARADISE STATE WILL BE YOURS.
ReplyDeletePrepare yourself – the conclusions herein are troubling. Once we absorb this information, another question will present itself:
What to do about the illuminati cabal – the luciferian mind – and its agenda of manipulation? The answer will become self-evident. The illuminati is mindful of its final moments to realize its goal. That goal is total control of our eternal wisdom state through a new world order, a new age of reason, designed to manifest itself through the 3 dimensional experience we call life. The new world order has long been established, but a subliminal hex must be cast over humanity, convincing us once and for all the 3D scenario is legit, that the 3 dimensional life experience is actually REAL. This luciferian mindset is convinced of success. However, it has failed. We now know what the scenario really consists of, how it was perpetuated using the illusory manifestation known as humanity, and most importantly, how to end the illusion.
SUBLIMINAL MESSAGING.
Through this messaging the luciferian-based THINKERS control and manipulate an illusory smoke and mirrors reality through indoctrination of the masses in intellectual and religious lunacy. Humanity is in a massive state of hypnosis. HUMANITY IS ITSELF, an illusory form, and the product of HYPNOTIC SUGGESTION. The consideration of this information WILL BREAK the TRANCE STATE.
The 3 dimensional curtain of deception, otherwise referred to a SINISTER FORM of HYPNOTIC MISDIRECTION, separates us from our natural state of wisdom, through awareness. The 3D perspective, everything we see, is a curtain formed in 3 directions – height, width and depth. Part of this 3 dimensional curtain is our physical body. The body has 5 physical sensors programmed to be receptive to the 3 dimensional illusion around us. The way these sensors pick up the signals from the 3D curtain is through subliminal messages.
Subliminals are constructed through such techniques as simple shapes, sounds and colours, and then more complex, multi-layered methods, such as reverse imagery, reverse symbolism, distorted symbolism, reverse speech patterns, neuro-linguistic (brain language) programming techniques, and the elaborate use of the language and number systems, among other devious modes of manipulation.
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Subliminal Messages Are Thoughts – Which Are Lies!
ReplyDeleteThoughts appear to make sense and relate to reality, sort of. This is why they’re subliminal. A subliminal is a message that does not rise above conscious threshold. A subliminal is designed to act on the mind at a subconscious level. That’s why the information on this site seems to almost make sense, but not quite. The 3D world is one huge subliminal. The luciferian mindset has manipulated the suggestible elite of the world to do whatever it requires to be done. If subliminal messaging were rational and able to be recognized on the conscious level, it wouldn’t be subliminal. We would never pay attention to it, and humanity would ignore this illusory 3D experience and stay connected to wisdom through awareness. The 3D illusion would then simply dissolve, or become of none importance or relevance.
The 3 dimensional illusion is CREATED BY THE THOUGHT PROCESS. Thinking is not being aware. Thinking is that thing any conscious being APPEARS TO DO to attempt to manipulate the future, or relive the pain/pleasure from the past. Both these time zones, the future and the past, do not exist. Therefore, thinking about them to manipulate them is a deception. However, to consider what is happening in this moment is not called thinking. Staying in the moment and meeting the needs of the moment is awareness of the 3 dimensional space, albeit, an illusory space. To function within this 3D space requires that needs be met. Reality, and our true eternal wisdom state, extends beyond the 3D illusory forms, and that wisdom state simply knows everything through awareness, ALREADY. Our eternal wisdom state knows the manipulation process of the luciferian egregore group of thinkers. Wisdom knows that this luciferian group plays god and plays the devil. Both of which are none existent. Wisdom, through awareness, sees how this group mindset bands together to manifest the reality they want all humanity to follow.
The luciferian entity is the fabricated creator god. In creating this illusory 3D reality using subliminal, subconscious messaging, this group entity conjured up and controls all power and energy, and in turn, the reverent respect of their illusory master creation called humanity. This adoration by humanity gives the luciferian group and their chosen elite the riches and servitude of this world and ABSOLUTE CONTROL OF THE ETERNAL PARADISE STATE. Because they, themselves, chose thinking and lying above awareness and wisdom, this 3D illusion is their reality. However, it is a reality fragmented, corrupted and filled with all manner of duality. They see this reality as superior to the reality of wisdom. Wisdom does not exhibit 3D manipulation through shape, colour or sound, so ultimately, wisdom is a reality of peace.
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Wisdom knows this. Wisdom is not thinking about how to manipulate affairs so that events work out in its favour. Wisdom performs none of this. Wisdom just knows that we are being manipulated. To stay connected to wisdom through awareness, we need simply to stay in the moment.
ReplyDeleteThis involves doing NOTHING. This involves NO PRAYERS, NO MEDITATION, NO MANTRAS, NO RITUALS, NO JOINING,… NO THING.
All practices, be they MEDITATIVE or PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES, are exercises in remaining OUT OF THE ONE ETERNAL MOMENT. This is not to say that meditating is bad or wrong, just as physical activity is not bad or wrong. On this site it will be repeated many times, that there is no such thing as good or bad, or right or wrong. However, these exercises avail no benefit in reconnecting to the wisdom state. Only emotional detachment, which is to place NO REAL WORTH or REAL VALUE in anything 3 dimensional, is true reconnection to reality.
There is no such thing as TIME and SPACE, and to enter into activities where you confess, and admit, disconnection from wisdom, simply by entering into that activity whereby you hope to reconnect to wisdom, (or as some call it, ENLIGHTENMENT), then you have not RECONNECTED WITH your original WISDOM STATE.
(Enlightenment is a luciferian term that sounds and seems to speak of reconnection to wisdom, however wisdom and enlightenment have nothing in common).
When you do NO THING, other than being fully aware that the 3 dimensional experience is an illusory deception conjured up through the THOUGHT PROCESS, which is turn was meant to disconnect us from REALITY, then you have reconnected to your original eternal wisdom state. There’s nothing to do, just simply become AWARE of what is transpiring.
Perfection and purity is what we are ALREADY. This is wisdom and this is liberty, this is the freedom and the power and strength of what we ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. The illusory 3 dimensional teachings of intellectual and religious thought systems, that instruct us to believe that we are born sinners, and need to repent, to avoid some hell fire, are conjured up lunatic notions straight from the mind of the luciferian egregore group mind. (This will be explained and fully laid out in the pages on this site. Do not stop reading if you desire to reclaim your ORIGINAL PARADISE STATE RIGHT NOW).
The aim of the luciferian group egregore is to establish a New World Messianic Age, where the control of the illusion we call humanity, is the manipulation tactic that will be increased to such an extent that escape from being manipulated by the total 3D illusion is all but impossible. Wisdom knows, and sees the lunacy of this 3D illusory reality. The illusion called humanity, (and humanity is an illusion), will awake from the trance and reconnect to our original state through awareness. These entities, who manifest their CONTROL OF REALITY through the lives of the elite, will soon dissolve in frustration as humanity stops responding to the subliminal messages that bombard the wisdom state in endless fashion. For it is that the 3 dimensional experience is NOT REAL, and it only exists IN OUR MINDS. Therefore, its in OUR MINDS, (which are in reality, THEIR MINDS), that we disconnect emotionally from the 3D space and reclaim our eternal state, which is here now. This is what we are! We are the original eternal paradise state, and the 3D illusion was simply conjured up through the THOUGHT PROCESS to separate us from this immense power and peace of the wisdom state and thereby deceptively manipulate this ultimate state of being into servitude to the luciferian egregore. The beneficial aspect in understanding this, is that at any moment of our choosing, we can become aware of the luciferian hypnotic manipulation, and we can reclaim our wisdom state, and experience the freedom of the paradise state right now.
Nuff Said for now.